This Is Where it Gets Good December 11, 2010
Posted by monty in education.Tags: education, teaching
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I tell all my methods students that teaching isn’t about instant gratification. I tell them that if they want a job where they’re immediately going to see the effects of their work, teaching isn’t it. You plan, you instruct, you cajole, you cheerlead, you give endless feedback and encouragement, and you do it all with the blind faith that what you’re doing is going to pay off in the end. If you need to see immediate dividends, find something that involves applause.
I tell them that what passes for instant gratification are the little victories: seeing students get interested in a book, noticing progress in their writing, listening for moments of insight during class discussion. You become highly attuned to those triumphs, and you modulate your definition of what constitutes success. You know you won’t often be thanked for what you do, but in some ways that’s okay, because teachers – the real ones who’ve gotten into the profession for the right reasons – know it’s a calling, and that they do this because they couldn’t picture themselves doing anything else.
But the funny thing is, sometimes gratification does happen. Often it’s delayed, but that doesn’t make it any less sweet. Case in point: the photo above. This was taken a few weeks ago at the annual National Council of Teachers of English conference in Orlando. While there I presented a session with three of my former student teachers (pictured above), who are all teaching in their own classrooms now. It was great to reconnect with them, but it was also inspiring to see that they’ve turned into the kind of teachers I knew they would – teachers who are intelligent, compassionate, and thoughtful, and who are truly making a difference in the lives of their students. And to hear all of them say they benefited from the class in which I taught them was just icing on the cake.
And in extremely rare instances, there is instant gratification. My semester ended last week, and I input final grades yesterday afternoon. Last evening, I received this email from one of my students:
I just wanted to thank you for being such an inspiring professor. You went beyond just teaching us the material. I feel like you did everything you could to help us become good teachers. You made yourself available for us, and I could tell that you were really sincere in wanting to help us. You offered honest advice, like telling us how to make up stories if a smelly kid stands in front of the air conditioner. :) Seriously, your stories about your experiences with teaching, and your advice about teaching in general, gave me a well-rounded perspective about what teaching is like.
I actually didn’t want to be a teacher anymore going into this class at the beginning of the semester, and now I’ve regained my desire to teach. You definitely played a role in my change of heart towards teaching, along with the experience that I had in the Internship.
I just wanted to let you know that you impacted my life in a good way, and I really appreciate it. You also modeled the type of teacher that I want to be. I’ve had great teachers before, but I’ve never had one that’s made me think ‘I hope I can be as good of a teacher as they are one day’. I know that sounds kind of mushy, but it’s true. You are personable, but not overly friendly. You are knowledgeable, but not preachy. You are experienced, but you acknowledge that your experiences aren’t the only relevant ones. Overall you exemplify the balance that teachers should have.
I could go on but this is getting a little lengthy so I’ll bring it to a close. Pretty much: thanks for being an amazing professor. Your efforts did not go unnoticed.
I shouldn’t have to point out why this is such an extraordinary message to receive. As teachers, it’s always nice to receive validation that what we do seems to be working, but beyond that, you can’t underestimate the rejuvenating power of a little gratitude. The next time I grow whiny and neurotic and self-defeating on here about my choice of profession, someone remind me of this post, and the photo and message that accompany it. This is why I do what I do, and, as always, the students make it all worthwhile.
*****
Current listening:
Beulah – The Coast Is Never Clear (2001)
The Sea Is a Good Place to Think of the Future April 14, 2010
Posted by monty in education.Tags: education, GLBQT
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When I moved from Santa Barbara, California, to the metro Atlanta area nearly a year ago, I freely admit to having many preconceived notions about what I’d encounter there. Admittedly, these were mainly fueled by my childhood memories of The Dukes of Hazzard, and I fully expected to find myself surrounded by hayseeds and bumpkins whose family tree, to borrow a line from Bill Hicks, was a stump.
And I was really in the dark when I imagined what my students would be like. I had become accustomed to working with preservice teachers who were intelligent and motivated, and who were receptive to any ideas that they thought would make them better teachers. Most importantly of all, their students were their primary concern, and they wanted to make sure – even as student teachers – that they were doing right by them. I didn’t know what to expect from my students in Georgia. The popular perception – not entirely unearned – is that Southern education is a sham, and I could easily picture a classroom full of mouthbreathing troglodytes who were only getting into the teaching profession for the summers off so they could help their pappy run the family moonshine business.
What I found – because I’m always wrong – is that my students were much like those I had in California. Undergrads this time, true, but no less concerned with their future students’ well-being, and just as sponge-like in their hunger to soak up any ideas that sounded promising. It’s been a humbling experience to see my own prejudices so thoroughly shattered, and for a while I’ve been operating under the belief that the only substantial difference between preservice teachers in California and those in Georgia is their geographical location.
Until today, that is.
On the schedule for today was the understandably delicate issue of gay/lesbian/bisexual/transgender (GLBT) students in class. When you’re dealing with preservice teachers, it’s important for them to see that this isn’t an issue to avoid, and with preservice English teachers especially, it’s increasingly crucial that they be aware of the Young Adult literature available to help students who are out of the closet or questioning their sexual orientation come to grips with who they are. The statistics dealing with LGBT teens who commit suicide (or make an attempt) are staggering, and teachers should be equipped with the knowledge that these struggles are happening in their classrooms, and they need to be confident in strategies to ensure that those classrooms are a safe space for all students to learn.
In California – at least the part of it where I spent the last several years – the idea that LGBT students shouldn’t be accepted or treated respectfully in classrooms would be laughed at. It’s something I didn’t spend a lot of time formally talking about in class, simply because in the course of our discussions we explored the need for safe spaces and for ensuring that different perspectives and voices are honored, and above all, that no student in the classroom should feel harassed or intimidated. To spend time belaboring the point with these students would be like reminding someone of the importance of breathing. Their attitude of acceptance was a foregone conclusion.
(As a side note, notice that there’s a difference between acceptance of homosexuality and promotion of it. I’m not asking teachers to change their religious beliefs or prejudices. It’s not appropriate for me to foist my own beliefs on others, and while it would be nice to live in a world where religious mania and close-minded bigotry didn’t rule the day, I understand that that’s a battle too big for me to fight alone. All I’m asking is for teachers to treat all their students like human beings, which shouldn’t be a radical proposition.)
Today, however, I encountered the first substantive difference between the two states. My students read a series of articles about acceptance of LGBT teens in the English classroom, and how literature can be used to give those students a voice. One of the articles (quite reasonably, I thought) advocated teachers putting a rainbow sticker or maybe a small flag somewhere in their classroom to acknowledge it as a safe, harassment-free space. The derision this idea received is akin to those people who, when reminded of Black History Month, belligerently ask, “Why isn’t there a White History Month? Well?” Several of the students amazingly saw this as being discriminatory toward straight people – that by putting up a rainbow sticker, you’d also need to put up a “straight” sticker, and a sticker supporting interracial relationships, and, even though I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, a bestiality sticker. Making a public display, however modest, of GLBT acceptance was “going too far,” in one student’s words. By the end of their table discussion, this small group was practically rolling on the floor in delight at all the clever new “politically correct” stickers they were coming up with, all so that, heaven forbid, GLBQT teens could feel accepted and safe.
The thing that drives me absolutely insane about this line of (non)logic is the majority culture’s failure to realize how many things they take for granted. There isn’t a White History Month because every fucking month of the year is White History Month. Putting up a rainbow sticker doesn’t discriminate against straight people because straight people dominate every facet of our society and determine the rules that non-straight people have to live with. It’s a short-sighted view of the world that’s completely ignorant of just how good the majority culture has it. And as a member of that majority culture in just about every way (except for the atheism and the baldness), it’s something I try not to forget.
More difficult to handle was the student who actually suggested that, because public schools are funded by taxpayer money, we should segregate schools to protect the general public’s desires. That idea is so beyond the pale – that corralling all the gays into their own school would be a good idea, because goodness knows we haven’t learned anything about racial or religious discrimination in this country – that I was completely at a loss for words. I couldn’t begin to come up with an even-handed, rational response, so I just let it go. Would it have made me feel better to tell her she was crazy? Absolutely. Would it have done any good? Probably not.
(I should also mention, just for accuracy’s sake, that this wasn’t symptomatic of the entire class. There are, for instance, three students whose more enlightened views on this issue I already know, and while I wish they had spoken up so I didn’t have to, I understood their silence.)
The most difficult thing about today’s class was being reminded yet again how bigotry often exists where you least expect it. The conversation today doesn’t begin to change my mind about these students – I still maintain that they’re smart, dedicated, and well-intentioned. But they’re also clearly products of their environment: conservative and religious, and living in a state whose discriminatory practices are well-documented. And it’s clear that when it comes to equal rights and fairness for all, we still have a long way to go.
*****
Current listening:
Horse Feathers – Thistled Spring (2010)
Roll Away Your Stone December 2, 2009
Posted by monty in education, teaching.Tags: education, teaching, writing
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Thus far, I’ve purposely avoided writing about my current teaching experience. I don’t think it’s entirely appropriate (or professional) to mix that experience with some of the mindless nattering I regularly do on here. But for my current class on the principles of writing instruction, their final assignment was to write a letter to the class describing what they’re taking from it, what they enjoyed, whose writing stood out to them, etc. The main tenet of the class is that teachers of writing are writers themselves, and to that end, the class wrote a lot, and they shared all (or almost all) of it in writing groups and with the entire class. It was an invigorating experience, and I thought I’d share the letter I wrote the class, just to give a little snapshot of what I’ve been up to in the classroom, and to let those of you who actually know me to see what I look like as an honest-to-goodness professor.
*****
Dear students,
The learning curve for me in this class was fast and steep. As I prepared to teach my first class in my first semester, I was plagued with the usual insecurities I always feel when I’m getting ready to teach a class for the first time. These anxious, imaginary situations invariably ended with an armed student rebellion, and me being drawn and quartered in the parking lot outside the English Building. I’m thankful that didn’t come to pass, although I realize the semester isn’t yet over, so anything’s possible.
What I didn’t anticipate is the level of care and commitment all of you would bring to your writing in this course. On the first day of class I established what I hoped would be our guiding principle: Teachers of writing are writers themselves. It’s one thing to say that, and another to see it in practice. And I saw it consistently for 16 weeks. All of you, whether you believe it or not, are writers, and that vital characteristic is going to enable you to become excellent teachers of writing, who engage and challenge his or her students to become more competent, confident, and sophisticated in both their writing and their thinking.
As I’ve listened in on your writing groups – and especially as I’ve had the pleasure of hearing your Shared Public Writings – I’ve been entertained, educated, moved, and inspired. There has been great humor and creativity in these writings, but also extraordinary acts of bravery. You’ve taken many of these writings to places I never envisioned them, tackling moments of personal anguish, insecurity, and sadness, but never doing so in a way that seems self-centered or whiny. You’ve written with passion, as Tom Romano advises us to do, and you’ve embraced Natalie Goldberg’s wild mind (even if you’ve fortunately not started hallucinating small furry animals at your side).
Despite the fast pace of the class and the extraordinary amount of work I’ve asked you to do (and believe me when I say I appreciate every ounce of effort you put into what we did here), I hope you’ve taken something away from this class – no matter how small – that you can use in your future teaching. For me, one of the things I hope you’ve seen is that confidence in writing often comes with understanding the nature of the process. Writing well isn’t easy. It isn’t a static, one-shot deal. A piece of writing evolves over time, and that evolution is sometimes painful and uncomfortable. But that isn’t something of which to be frightened. It’s an exciting challenge that indicates real learning and development. I saw you take up that challenge this semester, and I hope it’s something you’ll remember as you prepare to take over your own classrooms in the next few years.
In closing, it has been a true honor and a real pleasure to have you as my inaugural class. I realize I came dangerously close to the armed rebellion scenario when I assigned the portfolio, but I thank you for hanging in there, and I hope you see (either now or later) that there was a method to this class’ madness. I’ve had a terrific time this semester, and I wholeheartedly enjoyed seeing you begin to make the transition from being my students to being my colleagues.
Cheers,
*****
Current listening:
The Velvet Teen – Out of the Fierce Parade (2002)
The Gift That Keeps Giving November 22, 2009
Posted by monty in education.Tags: content standards, education, research
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If there’s one thing I learned from this weekend’s debacle (and you can read about it here, if you’re so inclined), it’s that hitching yourself to a research topic is just as much a leap of faith as embarking on a novel-writing project or deciding to audition for a play or any number of other creative acts. I know it’s not conventional to think of research as an act of creativity, but I think it is, especially when you’re working in a largely untraveled area. To take up a research interest is to make a commitment, and when it doesn’t come to fruition – despite your best efforts – it’s every bit as disillusioning and disappointing as getting that rejection letter from a publishing house or not seeing your name on the cast list for that play.
For the last three years I’ve practically lived and breathed California’s educational content standards at the high school level. I know these suckers inside and out. I’ve examined them, analyzed them, unpacked them; looked at how they’re assessed by state tests; spent hours interviewing teachers about them, and more hours transcribing those interviews; compared them to the standards of another state, which meant immersing myself in those standards for a couple months; read dozens of books and articles about the development of standards at the state and national level; and then, at the end of it all, wrote a 350-page dissertation that I was led to believe was ground-breaking work.
Turns out that either it isn’t, or it is, and nobody cares.
That’s the biggest kick in the teeth about the weekend, really. Yes, there were other disappointments, but there’s nothing quite like pouring your life into something and having it roundly dismissed. And what’s worse, it’s something in which I strongly believe. State departments of education around the country are doing their damnedest to reduce public education to its lowest common denominator, to dumb it down so that it can be easily assessed and quantified by multiple-choice tests. One of the primary ways it does this is through curricular standards documents that represent jargon-filled, but ultimately meaningless, statements of instructional purpose, often written by people with minimal (or no) classroom experience. And yet these statements dictate what gets taught, regardless of how nonsensical they might actually be.
My presentation this weekend was going to unveil a good chunk of this analysis, as well as some important data from my teacher interviews – data which reveals exactly what a group of teachers (the people most beholden to the standards) thinks of them. I spent time developing research I believed in, and more time preparing a presentation that represented this research in what I hoped to be an engaging, provocative way.
And no one showed up.
It kinda hurts.
The big implication for me and my chosen career path (chosen for the moment, that is; we’ll see if it sticks), is that I don’t have the faith in my research, my writing, or myself to soldier on in the face of indifference. I’d love to think I could be one of those guys who just hunkers down, puts on his blinders, and ignores the world outside in favor of something about which he’s passionate.
But I’m not one of those guys. I don’t believe in a lot of things, and I put myself at the top of the list.
And I’m not sure what that means for my future in this profession.
*****
Current listening:
Animal Collective – Fall Be Kind EP (2009)
Current reading:
Stephen King – Everything’s Eventual (2002)














